That day


Ever have that day? You know the day… the day when everything feels like it is going to topple over you, suffocating you underneath all of the mess? I am having that day. 

But I have plans. My day will not end in disaster. My day will end with sunshine and lollipops and rainbows in the sky. Because I cannot deal with the feeling of never-ending messes. I choose to find something good in this day. Something great even. Today is a sunshine day. A day of melting snow and warmth. A day that will end with me not turning on the heat, and possibly eating dinner outside. Today will be the good day, even with all of the turmoil of the morning. 

ALIF Surgery journey Day 1


I have waited 7 years for this surgery. Actually, I was diagnosed with Grade 2 spondylolisthesis with spondylitis and mini fractures of the vertebrae 10 years ago. But it didn’t bother me back then. Until an injury made it worse and it slipped another 3mm in 2011. And then another 3mm in 2012. By 2015 it had slipped approximately 10mm and was sitting on exiting nerve roots and causing my entire left leg to go to sleep (not to mention the pain that came with this).

So today, I arrived at the hospital for surgery. Everything went well. They went in through by belly, and fixed a plastic cage in between vertebrates with 4 screws and some bone protein. Now my body will begin it’s long journey to healing and fusing together its “new bone”.

I was able to walk a short distant a few times today, which I am told is great news! 

I will give an update on how I feel tomorrow. 

Yarmouth, NS


Even though it was foggy, it was a beautiful day for a driving adventure yesterday. Lots of stops along the way, and some beautiful beaches were seen.

Of course, we stopped for lunch and coffee before leaving Yarmouth, so we visited this clock on the waterfront.

I definitely recommend visiting the South shore along the Lighthouse route. It is quite beautiful! 

Lasting love


I have been married for 16 years. In 2008 my husband and I separated. In 2009 we reconciled. I would like to think we have never been happier, but as I have learned, marriage isn’t easy and you can never assume anything.

Relationships, ones where the intention is to be committed and life-long, are plastic… Mouldable… Ever changing. Why? Because people are. We don’t stay the same. Ever. We learn, grow, and change.

How did we reconcile and stay together even through some of the roughest, heart wrenching changes?
1. We talk. All the time. Sometimes it’s about nothing substantial, but communication is key. We don’t assume the other person knows what we want, need or are thinking. We talk about it.

2. We go on dates. Even when our three children were younger, we have tried to have a date at least once a week child-free. This could mean driving and talking with a Tim’s in hand, or stargazing, or actually going out somewhere. We spend time together, and enjoy each other.

3. We are intimate. We hold hands. We hug. We tell each other every day how much we appreciate being together. 

4. We choose each other. This is a huge part of us being able to reconcile after our separation. We could have chosen to part ways, we were, after all, living apart. But once we were able to stand being in the same room together and actually talk, we realized how much we love each other despite our faults. And now everyday, we choose to be together, to love each other, to remain committed forever and always.

It isn’t always easy. We get on each other’s nerves, we disagree, and we drive each other crazy sometimes. But we have known each other 19 years and have been married for 16 of them, so we must be doing something right!

Adventures


Over the last 8 months we have driven all over Nova Scotia. We went to Cape Breton, Antigonish, the Annapolis Valley, Digby, Greenwood, and even Ecum Secum. We adventured to Miramichi, New Brunswick to see what Chadam looked like now, and drove to Oromocto (Gagetown) to see the base and say hi to our youngest son who is at camp for the summer.

Today we are visiting around Yarmouth. We just made a stop for coffee in Liverpool. 

Nova Scotia is a beautiful province.

Taking time


 Yesterday it was sunny and all the snow was gone. It was warm and I was starting to believe that winter was over… 

 
Alas, it came back. Blowing snow, cold, and the roads are not really great to drive on. But we needed a day of quiet in our home. Sometimes it feels like we are too busy even though we are not really getting a lot done! 

A day of rest. No commitment, no running to the store, no renovations. It’s nice to have time 🙂 take some time for yourself, even just a few minutes – and be Alive with Grace.

There is beauty here


Sometimes even when I feel like I don’t want to be here I can see why people stay here. Days like this:  

    
    

That was our trip to Peggy’s Cove and Lunenburg, and our view from the Fort in Halifax. 

But even on days when we are not out exploring, I am reminded of simple beauties. The way the sky lights up pink for miles when the sun goes down. When we cross the Bridge and the coast guard ships are out in the vast ocean. The way the sun dances on the waves. 

There is beauty here. 

 

Renovating 


We have been in Nova Scotia for 5 and a half weeks. I stripped wallpaper off the ceiling and painted, and now we are moving into the rec room now… It is a very dark room so we are going to paint the top half of the walls a lighter colour to brighten the room a bit. I have watched my husband repair drywall… I didn’t even know that he knew how to do these things, and we have been together for almost 19 years! 

   
   
At least the painting will keep me busy for a while. It is definitely going to take me a while to complete the room, since I have to do it a wall at a time. 

Afterwards, we will fix the trim and other random things in that room and then move on to the next room 🙂

A great thing to do in the winter, since it is so cold here!

Home in the New Year


It’s a new year and we live in a new house in a new province. The weather here is similar to BC, other than when it snows it stays longer and the nights are cooler. It is supposed to be a high of -8 tomorrow (eeew!) 

Our son started school and cadets today. He didn’t say too much about either but seemed to think it was okay. Our home is mostly normal now, but I am still getting used to how sound carries in the house. 

Insomnia is kicking my butt. I continue to search for a doctor accepting patients. My foot (and back)has been bothering me and I am not sure there is really anything that can be done. I’m bored and really want to look for work but don’t think I would be able to do much. Maybe I’ll find a place to volunteer. Something… Anything… I can’t sit at home all day or I will go crazy!

We went out for New Years Eve. It was great. We took the ferry (versus trying to drive to Halifax in the traffic) and went downtown. There were bands, fireworks and even cirque performers. It was a good night. 

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